today I woke up at 8:00 PM, And I saw my mother seating on couch in another room, Father is taking Breakfast alone, And I realise that something is going on in between, And My father has drinking problem, we are all scared of him because of drinking problem, I don't know why people drink so much, I thing only they are enjoying and the rest of the family members are suffering in pain because of these bloody cock suckers, My nature is very calm but because of this shitty things I loose my control.
When I was a kid, I saw my relative and friends they are enjoying there lives without worries of there families at that time I think its because of our financial status, at that time we are not financially good, but when I grow up and become teen I realise its not about financial status no more, its about competition,
If you remember your past days in school, majority of parents went to parents teacher meeting only to compare his/her child to others, they not even see the hard work of his/her child they just go to see where's my child is standing, And the Report card is also like janam patri of student, that crap judge you and you feel inferior, and your parents looks at you as a shame, very hard feeling. And the whole blame is on student.
You are familiar with this below conversation:
Teacher: Here is your child report card, this report card say's your child is average
Parent: (Giving weird Expression Sounds Like World comes to end) Oh! No why How When (Whole WH family and then question comes in parents mind) Mam! can you tell me the Highest marks in this class, whose the topper.
Teacher: Preet is the topper, he scored 98%.
Student: (i think today is my last day in this world)
Parent: (with weird eye contact with child) you waste my money and time
Ah! this thing sucks, they just playing blaming game, they don't want to know the reason behind it, they want a robot not a child with feeling of independence,
When a child see his parent lying like a drunk man, he/she looses his/her will, I can't say more on this.
I am one on the sufferer, that suffer all these thing.
I never tell anyone about all these things.
I just write anonymously.
I am completely different person.
I love to see the world differently.
Sometimes, I just want to sit underneath the sky full of stars with my imagination girlfriend and listen songs,
Sometimes, I visit places to see children playing with no worries.
Its an awesome feeling when you saw a child of less then 5 years old. he looks into your eyes and smile, and you also smile like a child.